Monday, March 10, 2008

What would you think if I sang out of tune?

Would you stand up and walk out on me ?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
And I'll try not to sing out of key.

It's raining today in Paris, and I can't risk my sheet music by going out to sing for change.

I will be going out everyday that I can and singing for change from now until the end of April, when my visa expires. Hopefully by that time God will bless me with enough money for my ticket back to Kolkata.

Yes, you read that correctly. I am going back as soon as I have enough of my own money to pay for it.

The sisters here in Paris are wonderful, just as wonderful as in Kolkata, but the work is different and the volunteers here are a different sort as well.

They have designer clothes, fancy hair cuts , and in fashion jewelry on their fingers when they serve the homeless. No, not the sisters: the volunteers.

They are only a small handfull of them and they are from all over the world, and they are so sweet it almost hurts you inside when you see the way they care about you. No, not the volunteers: the sisters.

Here in Paris the volunteers start work every morning, except Thursday, at 8:30 and finish at 12 noon. They prepair, cook, and serve food that has been donated to the sisters for the poor. They do a pretty good job of it too as I would estimate that about 300 poor are fed ever morning.

That is all there is to the work. We cook and feed and Jesus is happy with us.

However, I'm not sure how happy he is with my being here, as I have felt at ill ease while working with the poor here. I do realize that I am picky, but honestly I don't feel any Love for my work here. Which is odd, because normaly my favorite thing in the world is to feed people.
(Just ask anyone who went to Ave Maria and ate at my Sunday brunches.)

So, I am going back to India as soon as possible, and I am going to keep learning about Love the best way I know how, the hard way.

Pray for me!